Daily posts in week three, break, will challenge us to be gentle, allowing the hurtful and hardened places in our life story to crack, thaw and be transformed.
In springtime Alaska, we experience several weeks of breakup. I appreciate this long season of mud, freeze and thaw, when the outer landscape can be a mirror and provide guidance for the ways in which I too might need to thaw disappointments, melt a hardened heart, and be warmed by growing light, providing that which is best in me to seed and root. This week is a time to take a peek at those places of unfreedom that prevent us from being passionate and compassionate women and men who laugh deeply and love profoundly. Daily posts will explore purify, simplify, let go, focus, perspective, and acceptance in order to bring us increased freedom to savor and delight in the one life we can live, our own.
Allow the words of Thomas Merton to accompany you this week. This was my prayer for many, many years, through times of discernment, deep heart fractures and suffering.
“MY LORD GOD, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.” – Thomas Merton, “Thoughts in Solitude”
Today I will savor in my heart ... I am more resilient than I think I am. I have hidden support to guide me.
I am here, God,
Come, take me
Bless me with your majestic grace
Break me of my ego and deadly capacity to sin
Give me as a gift to your broken and brilliant world
Show me how to willingly receive
Accompany me when I respond
And guide me to savor life.